We were gathered with Scott’s family at his parents’ cottage in Michigan in late spring of 2008. This was my first visit to the lake following my move to Goshen and I was ecstatically happy. He had grown up visiting the cozy cottage every summer and that excitement had faded through familiarity over the years.

Standing off to the side at one point, I observed Scott as he interacted with his brothers and their father in conversation. I smiled as I looked at him sitting casually on a stool, wearing his favorite shorts and sandals, talking and laughing at ease. Overwhelming love began surging through me. Loving care for my husband flooded through my entire being, and I was compelled to communicate my heart to Scott at that divine moment. The love was pure, untainted by lust, protective and healing, a touch from heaven.

Without hesitation I walked over to Scott and kissed him full on the mouth. In front of everyone. Without speaking a word. Our eyes met briefly before I stepped back from that intimate circle.

My boldness in front of his family was startling. I had not experienced anything remotely comparable previous to my relationship with Scott. My heart was close to exploding with the fullness as I stood in awed silence.

Those unexpected moments of awareness between us in our short time together were powerful, stopping us in our tracks, as we gazed at one another in amazement. We did not understand why, but we knew it came from God. Together we experienced love, shared love, and expressed love.

Discovering God’s love for me alone after Scott’s move to heaven has been transforming. He has cleared the extra clutter out of my life, my thoughts, and my emotions, with sharper focus and purpose. He has given me dreams and visions with a view of my future. He has taught me much about Him, much about the Kingdom, and much about life and people. Every revelation from Above comes with the realization that there is vastly more to learn and an increasing hunger to go higher and deeper in God.

He continues to lead and teach me in loving guidance, and I embrace His divine pruning as I move forward in His precious love. Life renewed.